Oh voice, where art thou?

I hate loosing my voice.
Its awful. I sound awful, I can't talk properly and my voice sounds ridiculous.
It hurts when I cough and laugh or anything. I was watching Advanced P.E. and I have come to the conclusion that Dairy is my problem. Briana said you eliminate dairy and it would make you less susceptible to being ill etc.
So I'm thinking cutting out some of the dairy then maybe I won't be as allergic to cat hair and being ill all of the time.

Then again, that takes alot of effort and would mean I'd have to give up chocolate milk, and Ice cream, mmmm ^___^

Hmmmm, maybe I should go back to fruit breakfast again? We'll see. If you haven't tried this chocolate milk you should. Its amazing. mmmmmmmmmmm






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Jadey

...ramblings of an ill person

I've come to the conclusion that 4music plays "Use Somebody" By Kings of Leon entirely too much.

Don't get me wrong, I love Kings of Leon, and I love that song, but so far everytime I have clicked onto that channel in the last few hours it is either just starting or its on next.

Also, that new song The Fear by Lily Allen I really really like. Its gotten stuck in my head and I have been humming it all day, even though thats a bad idea with the throat and all.
Usually I am not a fan of her. Oh well.

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Jadey

New Beginnings.....

This is the first and start of a band new way of my posting.

From now on, I am changing how I do this blog. Its going to be more my ramblings and ravings rather than my things about my personal life.
In the past I have done the odd blog on this, and there is still going to be personal touches, but I feel the need to take a step back and keep some things private.

I hope that this new way of my writing still makes all the 2-3 people read this continue to read it.

Thanks
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Jadey

I really don't know what to call this

I got to thinking today, is it all worth it?

I mean everything? I was sat in the back of English and I began to wonder what is the point?
My teacher was talking about working hard to get into college, then working hard to stay in college and get where you want to be.
But what's the point, in everything, life, work, play? Is there a state of dynamic balance?
Its shit. You work your fucking ass off in order to get into college, then you work your ass off more to stay in college and get a degree, then your degree is worth fuck all so you have to get another degree. All the while you are working in order to support yourself and yet you're still creating a huge amount of debt. Then when you do finally get a degree you need a job. You're working all the while to get to the job you love and then when you finally get it, you realize that its not what you want, and you have no social life, or no one to share your happiness, and then you fall into a depression and figure fuck it.
This whole work work work, is this honestly all life is? You work, you work so fucking hard in order to get where you are, and then do you get satisfaction out of it? Yeah sure, a day or two, but why do you want to work?
Is it money? Does money drive you to get material objects? Is that all that matters, fancy objects? A car, house? holidays? Why?
Its such shit, are people honestly happy? And what is happy? Is it when you buy something new? No, thats materiel greed.

Why are we here? We work, we work more, and more and then we retire, we do fuck all and they we die. Is that the point to life?
Well procreation. But honestly, we're just spawning a newer, ungrateful generation.


And you know what conclusion that all this lead to?
I figured fuck it. In all honesty, I really don't care anymore. If I have to work hard, and still be unsatisfied then so be it.
But you know what the highlights of life are?
Everything OTHER than work. Relationships. Yes. I know work too. And you can be disappointed by people too, but at least its human affection.
Friends are mainly there for you, the true ones will always be there, regardless. They help you to be the person that you are, and listen to you, even when you're a complete and utter arsehole.
Your bf/gf. Sure, you drive each other completely crazy sometimes, but my god, if you didn't have them you'd be a hollow shell of your former self, or perhaps thats just me?
I am so incredibly, I don't know, thrilled? that at this point in time, I am happy with things in my life. I don't care about work, school, or anything. I am so focused on not caring about them, that its caused me to look beyond it, and the thought of nothing at all scares the crap out of me, but my god is it exciting. I have amazing friends, an amazing gf, and the all of those little innocent pleasures really make everything worth it.


I really don't know the point of this blog, but I felt the need to write it.

I apologize for this atrocity I call a blog post

Eugh.

School has started again, back to the same tedious routine of scheduled classes and revision. This whole revision thing is really quite an arse. Don't get me wrong, I don't mind revision, but for example, lets take English.
Its a pretty broad course, but instead of letting us get on with it and do like a poet or something, shes instead doing Questions A and B from the texts. That is, in my opinion bullshit. Those questions are incredibly general, and there is no way you can practice them, its ridiculous to make us do them OVER AND OVER again. What is the point? There isn't one.

Eugh. And You think I'm done there? Oh no. This blog is all complaints! Aghhhhh...

Not only revision, but now we have Oral work. I fucking HATE scrudú bhéal. Its just an arse. And don't get me wrong, I love the language, Irish I mean, but Eugh. Its worse when you have a sore throat, thank god my teacher didn't make me talk it, well she wouldn't have been able to hear me anyways.
French. I'm not even going to start. We shall just leave it at. Je m'appelle Jade. That is all. Seriously. -_-

But what's REALLY pissed me off today? Fucking portfolio deadline. 4th of march. I'm fucked. Like actually proper fucked. Thats not for the college I actually WANT to go to, but still, its my fall back course. >_< I need to get some shit done. Seriously.

Its Ash Wednesday tomorrow, which means yet again I might have to sit in Mass for fucking ages, doing sweet F all. I HATE that they actually make us go. They say that its not required, yeah fucking right. I might ask mom if I can take the day off and do my portfolio, because really, I'm missing Chemistry, Biology and French, and possibly Irish too. And all the leaves is English (Doing nothing as I already explained) Maths, meh, and Double Art. Which usually I wouldn't miss, but we're doing real life, and I really hate that. Its nothing like the class Jules and I did, its just eugh. I really hate it.

The reason I am complaining alot is because I do that when I'm sick, and I'm in one of those moods where I NEED to get it off of my chest.

Oh, and that brings me to these next few points, March, At the end Sean and I are meant to be going to England, we need to check with mom to make sure its all ok, because flights are cheap and we'd be staying with nan. However it falls right in the middle of my orals, I think I'd have done my French one, and then maybe Irish would be either the Monday or Tuesday of that following week. So when we do go, I will be taking my Irish notes with me to learn on the plane/bus/etc. Fun times. I need to sort flights like now though. I think Sean is covering my airfare (Its only like €10. And we don't have to pay for accommodation or anything as we'd be staying with Nan, so thats all ok). And the best part of going to England? I get to see Amy again. Which, I'm completely and utterly ecstatic about. I can't wait.

Then the next major thing after that would be Easter. I REALLY really really really really really really really really really hope Amy can come over in April during the break. That would be so wow. I need to talk to my parents and see if thats all all good. I'd say they'd be alright with it.

Then its pretty much studying from then until June :( Eugh, fuck my exams are so close *Cries*
But after that, it only gets better. Start of July I have Amys birthday, My birthday, and possibly Donegal for a weekend?
Then We have Denise over for the week at the end of July, which is going to be brilliant. I get to do all the things that I've heard about but not actually done. Its true what they say, you never do the touristy things until someone comes to visit.
Then I have Julieannes and Cakes 18ths
Then August at the beginning its apartment hunting ^_________________^ Then D's birthday.
Then My results come out. Then the Debs. And then I move to Dublin.
That is of course if I get in.
Which at this point in time, I honestly don't know where it leaves me if I don't. I need to get in.

Ok, I really cannot look at this screen right now as it is hurting my eyes. I need my glasses. :(

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Jadey

Amy, Dublin and Maynooth

Update time.
It is LONG overdue. Ok I'm going to break this up into days as I have alot to talk about.

Tuesday 17th Feb
I woke up about 5 I think and headed to the Bus station around quarter to 7. I hung around the bus station and got my ticket. I think we finally left around 7:45 and the journey up was alright, I was just REALLY nervous.
I got to the Airport around 9. And waited at the gate for Amy, Alice and Matt to appear. I was so nervous, and when I saw Amy come out I honestly think all of my nervousness just left me and I couldn't stop smiling.
We hugged for a while and then went to find the buses. hehehe the machines were fun. You get all your change in one euro coins, it was fun times, like a game hahaha.
The bus was fantastic. I love the 747. ^__^
We got off the Bus on O'Connell street and went down towards the Spire. Alice and Matt split from us when we got to Forbidden Planet and Amy and I went one way and Matt and Alice went the other. (I'm so sorry for my shitty directions) >_<
Amy and I headed up to Stephens Green and we hung out there for a while. We watched kids run into trees and this couple who wore the same clothes :S We then met Matt and Alice for lunch. After that we headed back to Stephens Green and hung out on the grass for a while :) It was fun^___________^
Around 2:30 we decided to head towards the buses to get back to the airport. When we got to the Airport their flight was delayed for a bit which sucked but uh, I was kinda happy about it tbh. :$
Fucking Ryanair and they're shitty check-in and all that jazz. We hung out in Starbucks for a while and took picture and yeah it was fun. When Amy left I didn't really do much I went back to Shells and slept.

Wednesday:
I got up around 8.45 and got a shower before we headed into UCD. I sat and messed on Shellys computer and then got a Bus into Dublin around 1 and got into Dublin around 1.45. I walked to the Train Station and got my ticket and got to Maynooth around 3. Ailbhe met me at the station and we met up with Catherine, or as Ailbhe calls her Emo Fag. So lovely. We went and got Vodka and Sprite to make Coolaide things and bought stuff to make Fajitas mmmmm....
We hung out at Ailbhes and messed around 0n Facebook for a while and started to get ready around 7. Then the Rugby players started to arrive and all the girls. We drank and played drinking games and generally hung out and listened to music. Catherine, Crowe and Nik and I had a discussion about music and Tegan and Sara.
Ohh and Crowe in the woman jacket was hilarious hahahahaha.
We left Ailbhes around 10:30 I think. and walked up to Bradys. I called Amy I think and was all weird and happy. It was fun. We got to Bradys and started dancing and it was fun times. Catherine was showing me how to dance provocatively, it was so funny.
Ohhhhh and Check out Niks band www.myspace.com/kildareband
They're awesome. :)
Anyways, I think we left Bradys around 2 or so and we walked back to Ailbhes to get food. I think I woke Amy up calling her and talking shit >_<
We got back and made toast and pizza and talked and listened to Crowe moan hehehe. Cat and I headed back to hers as I was sleeping on her floor and we talked till like 5am, it was fun times.



style="font-weight: bold;">Thursday:
I got up at like 9 and caught the Train back into Dublin. I got back to Michelles and we went out to UCD and I got some pictures. We got back and I fell asleep on her bed as I was wrecked.
We headed into Dublin and met my 2 brothers and then headed out to the Academy and got T-shirts etc.
The first band was pretty excellent. They were local and I can't remember what they were called but they were pretty excellent.
The Second band Paranoid Visions, they SUCKED. Sean and I were like umm WTF? Is this a joke?
Then Rise Against came on. They were absolutely AMAZING! They played like something from every album it was fucking brilliant. Seriously amazing.
I love them, and political revolution indeed it was fucking awesome and they really got the crowd up and involved and it was amazing.
I was so tired though. We got back to Monaghan around 2am and I booked a Taxi for like 8 or something I think. I was so glad to be home. Plus it was Seans Birthday on Friday, Happy 15th Sean :)
Anyways, the rest of the day was a blur and then I went to work. It was fun. Ailbhe and I got off early so I dropped her home:) Her driveway is fun :)

But yeah, thats about it I think :)
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Jadey
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Seriously?

....
Fuck.
I have realized I have to drive into town at like 6am tomorrow morning as mom wants me to park my car at her work so that is is safe. Which is all well and good apart from the fact that her work is over the OTHER SIDE of the town to the bus station. It will take me 45minutes to walk from there to the other side of town. I might do it if I get up in time -_- Eugh. We'll see....

Now mom is going mad over it. FFS, it is FINE in the longstay car park, no one will want to steal Catface ffs.
Silly mother.

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Jadey

To an Insane week

Wow.
This week is going to be INSANE! >_<
But all in good ways.
So last night I finally went to sleep around 2:30am as I spend ALL day trying to get my fucking msn to work. WTF? Seriously?!?

Anyways, I think I have it now, I know I should reinstall the old one but every time I try it keeps telling me I already have a version on MSN, and I'm like, No, I removed the program and deleted it. Fuck you msn. That is all.

Anyways, so today I got up at 10, got changed and went into town. It turns out, although I gave Daddy Denises packages to mail on THURSDAY EVENING he didn't do it and they were sat in his car. -_-
So I took them and mailed them this morning. So yeah D, 2 packages on there way to you. After that I went to the bank. After the initial panic that I hadn't been paid, it turns out I was and I had just spent my last paycheck mailing those packages.
So yeah, I'm broke and I'm piratically living in Dublin this week. So I panicked and rang Dad, asking for Lendsies, and he said to "Ask your mother" So I did, and mom was reluctant. Anyways I have it sorted now so I have money to last me the week. Then I went looking for colored card. Don't ask why, but did you know its possibly THE MOST difficult thing to get a bloody hold of >_<
Then I went to the flat and rang my bank and waited until literally 10minutes ago until they rang me back. Bearing in mind I rang them at 11.50am, and it is now 3:40. Oh well. Adams flat is awesome, and he showed me this Master Chief figure that he got, its sooo cool... Wow Adam Sean and I are such Halo nerds.

That reminds me. My genius of a younger brother, and I have no idea how, managed to get his 360account hacked, and they stole all of his information and locked him out of the account. Dumbass. However, after some tedious phone calls to Microsoft he seems to be getting all of his stuff back. I don't know if our parents know yet, but they would hit the roof being as all the money they spent getting his subscription etc.

Anyways, I need to go and get other shit ready as I have to be ready for 6am tomorrow to get the bus to Dublin and meet Amy at the airport.

Oh and thats another thing. I'm currently really pissed at James right now. A few weeks ago I asked James did he want to hang out during the holidays and would he come to Dublin with me to meet Amy. So that was fine, all done weeks ago at the very very beginning of January. Then yesterday I rang him to ask him was it all still good. He said yeah no problems, he can't wait. 5minutes after, no warning, he just turned around and said "Uhmm Actually, I'm not going". When I asked why he just said "Something has come up...I, I promised Stephen I'd help him with things" I'm sorry but wtf? I don't mind if people cancel, well I mean I do, but when you lie to me it REALLY pisses me off. Why can't he just tell me the truth? Honestly, like 3 years of friendship and he's lying to me. I thought we were past all this crap. Obviously not.

Everytime lately I've asked to hang out, he's either not at home, he's with his gf or some other excuse. Well thats just fine. I'm done. I'm done trying, if he's not going to make the effort then I'm really not bothered anymore. When I really need him he's never there. Same goes for a few people tbh, but I expected more from James. And don't get me wrong I've got nothing against his girlfriend who I still haven't met, after what 6months? but honestly, I don't see why I keep getting blown off for everyone else.

Anyways, I'm going to stop now, because its getting me upset and for once this week is not about him. So yeah this week. Wow, I love how I just go off on little tangents. Tomorrow is Dublin and seeing Amy. Then I'm staying at Michelles Tuesday night. Wednesday I have to ring Cliodhna and get the train down to Maynooth with her to Ailbhes. We're going out on Wednesday night in Maynooth so I have to remember my ID. I'm staying at Ailbhes on Wednesday night (I get to meet the Man Bastard, YAY) And get the dart back to Dublin on Thursday, meet up with my brothers and go to Rise Against in the Academy in the evening. Adam has got my ticket so at least I don't have to carry it around with me all week. Finally Shelly is driving home in the early hours of Friday morning so I should be home around 2/3am.
And I have work on Friday evening. Oh then Saturday I have to AGAIN get up early as I have an eyetest in Craigaven which is like 1 and 1/2 hours away, so that should be fun. Then I have sunday to recover and back to school monday.

AND in between ALL of this, I have to do portfolio shit and plan out story boards for tv commercials for work. And possibly get some principal photography done and, soundtests. Eugh. This is going to be one hell of a week. Anyways, I need to go and work out, and go into town AGAIN and shower and aghhhhh do so much stuff. I REALLY fucking hope I don't over sleep tomorrow else I'm fucked >_< ttfn
Jadey

I wish Ink would dry faster...

Its Valentines Day.
I think that says it all.
Those of you who know me, which is all of 2 people that read this blog, know I am not a fan of Valentines day.
So like every year, I didn't really do anything for it. I have been doing some artwork, and I'm waiting for the ink to dry so that I can carry on. I am midway through one A3 piece, and I have another similar A3 to do. Then I need to fill some more pages. And then actually FINISH my storyboard ¬_¬
I am going to Dublin on Tuesday so I might get some photos at the Airport in order to put them in my portfolio. We'll see, depends whereabouts in the airport I am ^___^
I'm at work this evening, so the town is going to be full of drunk couples, yay>_<
Just like last year.... Oh well.
I have to go work out, and what not before work, so I might go for a run as I have some time. I am very proud of my run yesterday and I love that feeling after working out.

Anyways. Thats all I have for now I think. I wish this ink would hurry up and dry though, I really want to get some more done >_<
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Jadey

Currently Listening to: Precious Illusions - Alanis Morissette.
I think this song and video sum up my mind pretty well hehehe.

All Done!!!

Ok, so this past week I didn't have time to update. I have been crazy busy its just insane.
Monday
Maths Paper I
Fail!

Tuesday
French
Eugh, it was ok, I still did shit though.

Wednesday
Art Craft all day. I'm REALLY happy with how it turned out. I'm going to go WAY more intricate with my detail in the leaving though, as I had like an hour and a half at the end so that gives me time to get more done:)

Thursday
Irish Paper II
It was actually alright. I did An Bhéan Óg, Fiche Bhlian ag Fás. As my storys.
Poetry I did An Gealt? and Bímse Buan. They were alright, I B/S my way through Gealt.
Maths Paper II
Fail! Epic Fail!

Friday
Art History.
It was grand. I woke up late and nearly missed my exam, but I did finish like an hour and a half early so that was good.


It feels SO good to finally be finished. I can down relax for a week before getting thrown right back in there. Well, that being said I have a shit tonne of portfolio things :(
But I feel so good today. I got home, went for a 2mile run, worked out for a bit, had a bath, got changed and then went to pick my brother up from school.
I can't wait until Tuesday. Amy is coming over to Dublin, so James and I are going up to meet her and hang out. I have soooo much to do between now and then. I need to check bus times, see if James is free on Monday, as it would be easier if he just stayed here instead of driving all the way to his to pick him up to go to the bus station. We'll see.
I also need to check my bank balance and get moneys out. And see about Jules 18th present. I'm getting us tickets to see Eddie Izzard, so I REALLY hope they're not sold out.

Anyways, I haven't eaten all day and I think I might passout in a minute as that stupid bloody headache is back.
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Jadey

6 down

Friday I had Biology in the morning.
It was ok. Not as bad as Finnerty made it sound. It would have been better had I of learned it better. Oh well.
I had Art in the evening. It was still life. It was a bit shit but I REALLY don't care.

Anyways I'll do an actual update in a bit
Jadey

4 down....

I have just failed Chemistry.
That is all.

Jadey

3 down

Hurrah One more exam down.
Irish Paper One done:)
I got to sleep in this morning which was excellent. I got up around quarter to 10 and got some studying in:)
I went into town around 12:30. It had been snowing all last night and there was a few inches of snow. But I had no trouble driving in it.
The Exam was alright.
The Essay I did was ok, and the Litir, errr letter.
My comprehensions sucked though. But there was one on Des Bishop, which was awesome:)

Tomorrow I have Chemistry in the morning. I'm fucked. Its not even funny how dead I am >_< Then I have the afternoon off so I will be studying Biology. :(
I need to set up my still life, like seriously need to do it >_<
Gah.
anyways, back to studying

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Jadey

2 Down..well really just 1

Today I had my English exam.
6hours of writing. Eugh. Now theres two papers in the English Exam. English paper 2 we had first.
Section I
It had on it a Macbeth Question. It was actually alright. It was a nice enough question.
Section II
Was Comparative, it was either Vision and Viewpoint or Cultural Context.
I did C.C. And it sucked. I rushed it and skipped bits and in general I answered it really badly.
Section III
Is poetry. I did the seen poetry first and I did Michael Longley. It was a nice enough question and I knew a bit on Longley as all his poems are basically about sectarianism and war and violence so that was alright.
I had to rush the second half though. It was the unseen poetry, the Poem itself was actually alright and if I'd of had enough time I could have wrote loads on it. I started talking about the similarities between it and inspiration speeches and how it sounded like Baz Lurhmans Everybody's Free To Wear Sunscreen.
That all took 3 hours.
Then I had lunch for 50minutes.
Then into paper one

Section I
Was 3 reading comprehensions. You had to do a part A from one of the 3, which is 3 question on the text.
And the a part B for a different text from any of the 3.
I did my Part A on this Kirsten Dunst thing. And then My Part B was an essay on how music has changed in the last few years, entitled: PunX n0t DeAd. I was pretty proud of how it turned out.
Section II
I did a short story. The line was something like "And then I saw movement in the distance" I have no idea where my story came from it was weird. It was really shit tbh, but I was so tired and my arm was aching, and I didn't plan, so it was just a big mess. It was about this girl (In the first person) and she had a car crash and she died only she wasn't dead she was like between the veil of the living and the dead and then she offed herself in there because she wanted to see if she could get back to earth that way, and yeah it was weird. I had no idea where I was going with it.
Then again the theme of the English paper was Different Worlds. So meh.
That was another 3hours.

My hand is sooooo fucking sore now though. It was shaking like crazy earlier. And now my thumb is fucking killing me.

Oh and its my Daddys Birthday today, so Happy Birthday Daddy :)

anyways I have to go and Study Irish as I have Irish Paper 1 tomorrow at 1 until 4 :(


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Jadey

STEELERS

I figured I'd do a quick update while I'm doing Art and what not.

Yesterday I was working and it was soo much fun.
Well Ok, so there was like 30minutes that sucked. I collapsed. I had a panic attack and couldn't breathe. The worst part was when my hands started to shake uncontrollably. That sucked alot.
Anyways... I was alright, despite people worrying about it. Would have been better had my inhaler worked properly ¬_¬
Oh well.
Anyways, I was working with Alibhe, I missed her so much. I love working with Alibhe, we always have the best fun. She also invited me out to Maynooth to go out with her when I have my week off, so that should be fun, thats if we get it to work out. Its all in the planning stage atm, nothing definite tbh.
Got home and I don't really remember what I did :S hmmm
I miss Claire. I miss working with her so much :(
Today I go up relatively early and did artwork. I know I should Study but I don't want to :(
uhmmm then I took my brother into town got more money on my 3vcard. Got home, talked to Amy and Denise.
Oh and Adam brought me out a yellow top so I could wear Steelers colors, hes so cool:)
Basically I've been sat here doing artwork and and Denise showed me Zumba! I want it soooooooooooooo bad. Denise you are the coolest ever <3 I was mesmerized for hours hahaha.
Now I'm just waiting for the Superbowl to start.
GO STEELERS!!!!!!



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Jadey